as a connoisseur to anything fried, i take great pride in knowing where there is fried chicken in any city that i am in. KIPS BAY is one of only cinemas in NY that has not only fried chicken, but curly fries, hot dog bites, corn dogs, hot dogs (its labeled 2000 calories), and those wonderful ice cream sandwiches with two cookies. oh god.
so tonight i went there to see a movie, just like most evenings, and i tried the fried chicken there, it wasn't so yummy, neither were the curly fries.
on the way over though, i killed this huge mosquito that was pestering everyone on the train. the rather plump lady across from me was trying to kill it too, and when she saw my hand was all bloody, she took out a dunkin donuts napkin from her napsack, so i could clean myself off. Isn't the world wonderful? she wore a t-shirt that said LIBRA on it. she seemed like a wonderful being. I kept on thanking her.
Also, i'd like to just point out one of my favourite quotes from Brains:
"peawok sometimes, you're just so good. not like a good person. but just GOOD" o_o
Thursday 27 August 2009
Wednesday 26 August 2009
lovely day right?
I just spent the last 2 hours or so with a truly great person. We don’t speak that much but have a mental connection. She sends me imagery through her hands and I receive the messages and "see" them through my brain. It’s a little crazy, I know I have to admit. She doesn’t really do anything exactly, but just picks up the pieces that have been displaced and realign them.
At the beginning I felt like a huge balloon, with long legs floating around, looking for things to fill up my head with. I have to say, that I would much rather have my whole body hurt than my head. Your head and your feet are the closest physical attributes we have that will connect us, and it is so important to have those things in balanced at all times. What was bizarre this time, was the amount of imagery that I saw; over analyzing is an understatement of what I’ve been doing. Little things, lack of manners, no please or thank you, not acknowledging goodnight, good morning would be the end of me. Its hard to visualize this without sound facts, I know, but when we're aligned, I can feel every message and we speak without making a noise. When she touched, I said outloud, "do you feel how much tension there is?” and she said “yes. You’re head is twitching!!!" Constant worry and fantasy, impracticality, isn't a nice feeling. People you invest time with should make you feel great about your existence, and be fully aware of that. It should just be balanced, happy and unhappy, no one over the other.
This awful image of black clouds with wagging tongues and teeth and a single horn looming plagued me. It was above my sleep, above my door, followed me everywhere. But It was washed away by waves and pure sounds, and as I felt a burst of light, and my knees started to shake. The amount of anxiety was terrible, and the anticipation as it arrived was consuming, but as it entered from the bottom of my spine through my heart to my head, my mental vision was spinning, and as it reached her hands that were connected to my head, I opened my eyes and gasped for air, and all I could see were open fields, and forests, and I could smell wild flowers, and orange triangles floating around. I saw these things with my eyes open, I saw the black dots slowly reside and leave.
She said to me, “Something numbed you and it just manifested in that dark matter and you’re imbalanced completely from that, not allowing anything to pass your head to the rest of body. You mean so well in what you’re doing, but remember that every person you meet, relationships, friendships, strangers, it is so complex and intricate that what you’re doing, even if its out of love, and care, can be portrayed as the antithesis to the other. Focus on being relaxed, feeling this way is a state of mind that not everyone can achieve on a day-to-day basis. You feel so bad when something happens and you shouldn’t because its hurting you, and when you’re hurt nothing is achieved.”
I questioned, “Is my relaxed state, this idea of happiness manufactured now? I mean I definitely do not have trouble verbalizing what I feel or retaining information but its not connecting and making sense of it is trouble. Its like everything is AHHHHH when it should be “what’s the problem, lets deal with it.” Sort of thing.”
“Those blissful images I’ve sent you is what you should feel everyday. Not that nasty black cloud of monster. It's gone. Believe that. Everything will be okay."
When I opened my eyes, I waited for about 10 minutes before I verbally said anything.
“did you say something?”
She replied “No what did I say?”
At the beginning I felt like a huge balloon, with long legs floating around, looking for things to fill up my head with. I have to say, that I would much rather have my whole body hurt than my head. Your head and your feet are the closest physical attributes we have that will connect us, and it is so important to have those things in balanced at all times. What was bizarre this time, was the amount of imagery that I saw; over analyzing is an understatement of what I’ve been doing. Little things, lack of manners, no please or thank you, not acknowledging goodnight, good morning would be the end of me. Its hard to visualize this without sound facts, I know, but when we're aligned, I can feel every message and we speak without making a noise. When she touched, I said outloud, "do you feel how much tension there is?” and she said “yes. You’re head is twitching!!!" Constant worry and fantasy, impracticality, isn't a nice feeling. People you invest time with should make you feel great about your existence, and be fully aware of that. It should just be balanced, happy and unhappy, no one over the other.
This awful image of black clouds with wagging tongues and teeth and a single horn looming plagued me. It was above my sleep, above my door, followed me everywhere. But It was washed away by waves and pure sounds, and as I felt a burst of light, and my knees started to shake. The amount of anxiety was terrible, and the anticipation as it arrived was consuming, but as it entered from the bottom of my spine through my heart to my head, my mental vision was spinning, and as it reached her hands that were connected to my head, I opened my eyes and gasped for air, and all I could see were open fields, and forests, and I could smell wild flowers, and orange triangles floating around. I saw these things with my eyes open, I saw the black dots slowly reside and leave.
She said to me, “Something numbed you and it just manifested in that dark matter and you’re imbalanced completely from that, not allowing anything to pass your head to the rest of body. You mean so well in what you’re doing, but remember that every person you meet, relationships, friendships, strangers, it is so complex and intricate that what you’re doing, even if its out of love, and care, can be portrayed as the antithesis to the other. Focus on being relaxed, feeling this way is a state of mind that not everyone can achieve on a day-to-day basis. You feel so bad when something happens and you shouldn’t because its hurting you, and when you’re hurt nothing is achieved.”
I questioned, “Is my relaxed state, this idea of happiness manufactured now? I mean I definitely do not have trouble verbalizing what I feel or retaining information but its not connecting and making sense of it is trouble. Its like everything is AHHHHH when it should be “what’s the problem, lets deal with it.” Sort of thing.”
“Those blissful images I’ve sent you is what you should feel everyday. Not that nasty black cloud of monster. It's gone. Believe that. Everything will be okay."
When I opened my eyes, I waited for about 10 minutes before I verbally said anything.
“did you say something?”
She replied “No what did I say?”
Tuesday 25 August 2009
bad month
this is all some sort of test right? fate has something for everyone, and I cannot bear to be so pessimistic, but at a certain point it just makes me incredibly angry.
i've been in bed for the past week, mostly because i've been sick, but in that time i thought about my existence greatly: it is worth all this trouble? what is more confusing is how my body responds to it. my head hurts so much all the time, and it might just be a physical manifestation of all things bad happening at once, and they have to expelled some how. I don't know, i refuse to loll over a subject that i know shouldn't be of great importance.
anyhow, i got some great photos that i can finally post up.
my friend and i went to bingo the other night, and we came across an amazing car accident. i laid on top of it, and it was so perfect. though i made the mistake of doing the same on a pile of garbage, and the garbage leaked all over my back.
the point is this: we try so hard to get rid of excess and clean ourselves from our own filth and garbage, but why does it always resurface? is there a point to get rid of it in the first place?
i've been in bed for the past week, mostly because i've been sick, but in that time i thought about my existence greatly: it is worth all this trouble? what is more confusing is how my body responds to it. my head hurts so much all the time, and it might just be a physical manifestation of all things bad happening at once, and they have to expelled some how. I don't know, i refuse to loll over a subject that i know shouldn't be of great importance.
anyhow, i got some great photos that i can finally post up.
my friend and i went to bingo the other night, and we came across an amazing car accident. i laid on top of it, and it was so perfect. though i made the mistake of doing the same on a pile of garbage, and the garbage leaked all over my back.
the point is this: we try so hard to get rid of excess and clean ourselves from our own filth and garbage, but why does it always resurface? is there a point to get rid of it in the first place?
Thursday 20 August 2009
closer
i just read that play Closer. Oh god. i love the dialogue
here are my fave quotes. i'm drawn to this character Alice a lot. how GOOD is she!?
these four lines can be applied to so many things in our lives. by ours, i mean you and the country's
Alice: Show me. Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't feel it. I can hear it, I can hear some words but i can't do anything with your easy words.
Alice: His big thing at the moment is how upset his family are. Apparnetly, they all worship you, they can't understand why you had to ruin everything. He spends hours staring up my arsehole like there's going to be some answer there. Any ideas, Anna?
Alice: Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. But its better if you do."
Alice: That's the most stupid expression in the world. "I fell in love" - as if you had no choice. There's a moment, theres always a moment; i can do this, i can give in to this or i can resist it. I dont know when your moment was but i bet there was one...No, I chose him, I looked in his briefcase and I found this...sandwich...and I thought, "i will give all my love to this charming man who cuts off his crusts." I didn't fall in love. I chose to...."
with greatest affection,
peawok
here are my fave quotes. i'm drawn to this character Alice a lot. how GOOD is she!?
these four lines can be applied to so many things in our lives. by ours, i mean you and the country's
Alice: Show me. Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't feel it. I can hear it, I can hear some words but i can't do anything with your easy words.
Alice: His big thing at the moment is how upset his family are. Apparnetly, they all worship you, they can't understand why you had to ruin everything. He spends hours staring up my arsehole like there's going to be some answer there. Any ideas, Anna?
Alice: Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off. But its better if you do."
Alice: That's the most stupid expression in the world. "I fell in love" - as if you had no choice. There's a moment, theres always a moment; i can do this, i can give in to this or i can resist it. I dont know when your moment was but i bet there was one...No, I chose him, I looked in his briefcase and I found this...sandwich...and I thought, "i will give all my love to this charming man who cuts off his crusts." I didn't fall in love. I chose to...."
with greatest affection,
peawok
Wednesday 19 August 2009
ISNT IT JUST SO GOOD, STRAPPING, AND INAPPOPRIATE?
OK SO I HAVENT REALLY BEEN EATING TODAY
SOME PPL CAME OVER TODAY, AND WE HAD SOME TEA AND I HAD ABOUT A HANDFUL OF BLUEBERRIES
I WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED TILL ABOUT 9PM TO FINALLY EAT SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE HAD THE FOLLOWING
GRILLED PORTOBELLO MUSHROOMS
ORZO, TOMATO, CUCUMBER, AND CORN SALAD
SCHWEPPS RASPBERRY GINGER ALE
and now i'm still starving because vegetables never fill up your stomach and they are digested so quickly.
now with more important stuff: what does bliss feel like? Brains please respond. i know you have the answer
SOME PPL CAME OVER TODAY, AND WE HAD SOME TEA AND I HAD ABOUT A HANDFUL OF BLUEBERRIES
I WAITED AND WAITED AND WAITED TILL ABOUT 9PM TO FINALLY EAT SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE HAD THE FOLLOWING
GRILLED PORTOBELLO MUSHROOMS
ORZO, TOMATO, CUCUMBER, AND CORN SALAD
SCHWEPPS RASPBERRY GINGER ALE
and now i'm still starving because vegetables never fill up your stomach and they are digested so quickly.
now with more important stuff: what does bliss feel like? Brains please respond. i know you have the answer
Tuesday 18 August 2009
so much to discuss
i feel like i have totally missed out on documenting
i'm just recalling the time i recently needed to visit blue ribbon for my miso butter fix, and ate and ate and ate a meal for 3, but dined only for 1.
Dee, the waitress, said to me "wow you're hungry" and while i was texting a friend of mine to join me, i finished my epic meal. As i walked out, he wrote me back finally, and joined me.
"i'm hungry for sushi" he said. "want to go back?"
"to the same restaurant?" i replied
"yes"
we walked back in, and they said "are you hungry again ALREADY"
i'm just recalling the time i recently needed to visit blue ribbon for my miso butter fix, and ate and ate and ate a meal for 3, but dined only for 1.
Dee, the waitress, said to me "wow you're hungry" and while i was texting a friend of mine to join me, i finished my epic meal. As i walked out, he wrote me back finally, and joined me.
"i'm hungry for sushi" he said. "want to go back?"
"to the same restaurant?" i replied
"yes"
we walked back in, and they said "are you hungry again ALREADY"
key issues
lets talk about a key issue that have 'bean' happening in my life. i think i have discussed this in previous entries before, but its so hard to find someone to have lunch with on a regular basis. the key is to find someone with a similar palette or is willing to try new things. my friend said to me the other day, "peawok, all you do is lunch. whenever i talk to you, you respond by saying "sorry i'm just lunching" or "i'm off to a late lunch. is that all you do?" YES. AT THE MOMENT
but lunch is so much more fun than dinner. with dinner you have so many expectations that could remain unfulfilled, and lunch, is easier to make casual business transactions for example. anyway enough. i hope i get to go to OG today, but we'll see
and i did this the other night.
i'm really into this music thing suddenly
but lunch is so much more fun than dinner. with dinner you have so many expectations that could remain unfulfilled, and lunch, is easier to make casual business transactions for example. anyway enough. i hope i get to go to OG today, but we'll see
and i did this the other night.
i'm really into this music thing suddenly
Monday 17 August 2009
things have "bean" ok
I'M QUITE PLEASED WITH THE PURCHASES I HAVE MADE WITHIN THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS. I JUST GOT HOME AFTER A DAY OF LOOKING FOR FURNITURE AND PICKED UP A HUGE BOOKCASE, A METALLIC SILVER CARPET, A THICK PINK WOOL CARPET, AND A PINEAPPLE PLANT. NOW I JUST HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO READ!!!!
THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BITTERSWEET IN PEAWOKS WORLD. I HAVE BEEN EATING QUITE WELL AS OF LATE, AND SOMEHOW MANAGED TO LOSE 5 POUNDS IN THE PROCESS, BUT I'M A LITTLE SAD BY THE DEPARTURE OF BRAINS...BRAINS HAS LEFT THE BUILDING AND MOVED ELSEWHERE FOR THE TIME BEING, AND SPENDING MY LONESOME SELF AT HOME WITHOUT HER PHONE CALLS MAKES ME QUITE UPSET.
HERE ARE SOME OF THE MEMORABLE DISHES I HAVE EATEN FOR THE COUPLE OF WEEKS
VIETNAMESE BOUILLABAISSE
VIETNAMESE SPRING ROLLS
HANGER STEAK
NECTARINE SOUFFLE
PASTA SALAD WITH TRUFFLES & PROSCIUTTO
BRAISED CRAB IN CHICKEN BROTH AND 'YI MIEN'
BROILED SQUAB ON A BED OF BROCCOLI RABE
BAKED CHILEAN SEA BASS SIMMERED IN A CHORIZO BROTH WITH CLAMS AND BROCCOLI RABE
PEKING DUCK
OCTOPUS SALAD
SOFT SHELL CRAB SANDWICHES
GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICHES MADE WITH TRUFFLE OIL
FISH, CHICKEN, BEEF TACOS
+ AND LOTS OF LOVE
THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BITTERSWEET IN PEAWOKS WORLD. I HAVE BEEN EATING QUITE WELL AS OF LATE, AND SOMEHOW MANAGED TO LOSE 5 POUNDS IN THE PROCESS, BUT I'M A LITTLE SAD BY THE DEPARTURE OF BRAINS...BRAINS HAS LEFT THE BUILDING AND MOVED ELSEWHERE FOR THE TIME BEING, AND SPENDING MY LONESOME SELF AT HOME WITHOUT HER PHONE CALLS MAKES ME QUITE UPSET.
HERE ARE SOME OF THE MEMORABLE DISHES I HAVE EATEN FOR THE COUPLE OF WEEKS
VIETNAMESE BOUILLABAISSE
VIETNAMESE SPRING ROLLS
HANGER STEAK
NECTARINE SOUFFLE
PASTA SALAD WITH TRUFFLES & PROSCIUTTO
BRAISED CRAB IN CHICKEN BROTH AND 'YI MIEN'
BROILED SQUAB ON A BED OF BROCCOLI RABE
BAKED CHILEAN SEA BASS SIMMERED IN A CHORIZO BROTH WITH CLAMS AND BROCCOLI RABE
PEKING DUCK
OCTOPUS SALAD
SOFT SHELL CRAB SANDWICHES
GRILLED CHEESE SANDWICHES MADE WITH TRUFFLE OIL
FISH, CHICKEN, BEEF TACOS
+ AND LOTS OF LOVE
Sunday 16 August 2009
we're back
okay so ladies and gentlemen, ive pulled moskigo out of hiatus and decided to finally write again
im very excited to relaunch this venture
xoxoxooxx peawok
im very excited to relaunch this venture
xoxoxooxx peawok
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