one day.....

look how satisfied he is with life!!!

currently at the airport and leaving ny for about 3 months, and i'm a little hesitant about it.
the part that brought me great sadness was when i had to "put down" this hybrid orchid of mine that i've been growing for some time now. i said to it "it brings me great sadness to have to say these words and I am sorry for what i'm about to do; i'm going to have dry you"
I guess that was better than putting it in the garbage since it would just wilt away helplessly

sad clown

i cant get over this

silly lesbos.

some new obsessions

and this is sooo sad


and isnt this so weird?

CAKE!!

I JUST MADE THIS

back to old self

i think this time when i return to hk i will go back to my roots as a dj. no seriously. could you imagine.
here are some examples of me "spinning"

HOUSE HIPPOS

i hope this works

isnt this picture so ridiculous yet kind of endearing, if you remove all the political stuff behind it.


this is my new bedroom
my mother said she hasnt seen me smile like this in a long time



xoxooxox
i cant upload videos. does anyone know a better site other than youtube or photobucket that can upload videos

RED LETTER DAY

a gold star! today is a red letter day.
i started to work again, after an 11 month hiatus of being brain dead. i'm finally ready to go back to work and create new artwork.
the epiphany came after doing my secret technique of finding inspiration hadnt worked for so long, and i did the exercise in the morning and everything came flowing back
i am very excited to say that i will have something significant by the end of the summer

to celebrate i went to ralph lauren and bought all these bow ties
if only i knew how to tie them!!!!!

xoxoxoxoxo

xanadu

this makes me so happy

PHOBIA

when i was younger, the shower had a window and this was before we had screens installed
and the lunar moths would fly into the shower because they were attracted to the light. and i would like think for my milky white skin reflecting off the light
and would just come and attach themselves to me and just stick on bc it was wet in the shower, and i would be naked and i would go ballistic!!!! covered in i would say at most 7 giant green moths while you're in the shower.

butterflies are a whole OTHER story. but equally as much of a phobia

the fear has developed worse and worse as i've gotten older. i think they are going to consume me and kill me!!! i've been in therapy for this. i wont elaborate anymore without being too personal

xooxox

my worst fear

recently i had a health scare where i ended up in the hospital!!!
right off the airplane
so glad that part is over and now for the recovery...

now for better things...



MY WORST FEAR

those that know me personally know that i have a deathly fear of moths.
so today at dinner, i went into the washroom and there were frame lunar moths inside a wreath, enclosed in a glass display case!
AHHHH

xoxooxox

IN PARIS

I CANT UPDATE
I DONT HAVE INTERNET
WILL DO SO WHEN I GET BACK TO THE UK
YAYAYAYYA

This egg is great

MORE DELIGHTS

burger time

its been a while since i've eaten and i'm DYING for a hamburger. its just that from the time i've returned to NY from HK, i've gained 15 pounds from the 4 months of just laying around and doing nothing, doing lady activities, etc. and since i've gotten back i've been on this major diet and i've already lost 8 pounds. i will attribute it partially to starving myself but i am working out daily and doing pilates and cardio and sweating everything out, as well as drinking loads of evian. somehow my pants seem tighter today.

so yesterday, january 28, i had this god awful haircut. i know i havent seen the hairstylist since october, but i've been out of town. no need to go psychotic on my head. at first he had the idea of "oh let me shave off everything on your head except, how about, one long strip in the back" i kindly declined, but then he went on to say "how about some red streaks" i eventually just had my head shaved.

i'm currently in my bedroom but the television is on. i've never watched this "Rock of Love" show on VH1 before. "oh my god Brett is soo hot" who are these people.

i'm soo hungry. i'm dying for a steak or burger
what have i eaten....
umm
granola
fish
broccoli
tomatoes
red peppers
apples
egg whites

yesterday though i ordered 10 hot wings in celebration of losing 8 pounds but i feel disgusting now.
TIME FOR BED
ITS 830PM

UNDER MAINTENANCE. SORRY

OK B.
SO ITS BEEN LIEK A MONTH SINCE I'VE POSTED ANYTHING. THE MONTH OF DECEMBER WAS A LITTLE SLOW FOR ME. PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY.
for my stomach and my brain.

i dont know who B is. but i just thought i'd say that to make it seem like i was gearing this post towards one specific person.
but i will summarize the month in a couple of key moments.

NEW YEARS WAS SPENT LOOKING AT STRIPPERS IN MACAU WITH MY PARENTS
it was my idea ok. but my dad fell asleep and i told him it was rude to sleep during a striptease because "YOU DONT KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO TAKE OFF YOUR CLOTHES"
the strippers were completely nude. so i saw a lot of meat curtains.
the men clapped as the girls opened their legs.
and the old ladies behind me slept...
since i was in a sleazy town i thought i'd do seedy things. and i won 600$ from a slot machine.


LATELY I'VE BEEN HAVING VIVID DREAMS ABOUT EVERYDAY ACTIVITIES THAT THEN TRANSLATE INTO REALITY
LIKE HOW I HAD TO QUEUE FOR SECURITY CHECK AT VOGUE WITH R. EVERETT. AND THEN I POOED IN MY PANTS.

or how Eddy drove me to the airport with C and how i said it was "not necessary" and he insisted that it was only polite to do.

Food Wise
i have been eating the following

Butter and ham sandwiches
fried chicken
Robuchon (A LOT lately)
Cipriani's because i miss NY
lots of tofu
fruits since we're in the tropics


NOW LETS FOCUS ON SOME IMPORTANT POINTS

i was peed on yesterday
the day before i had a phobia scare with parasites on my other dog's ass
i swear dots are going to end my life
one of my fish fell down the sink and i couldnt save it. it was really sad. and i threw food down the drain to see if it coudl eat but it had swam away when i shown the flashlight into it
lately i've been feeing kind of gross. the headaches have been coming back. MOSTLY BECAUSE OF MY ON GOING TRUST ISSUES WITH THE CITY OF SHANGHAI.


OK BYE NOW